From Darkness Comes Light-A New Year Vision

I've been away for awhile. From blogging, from myself, from my life and my work. Just prior to Thanksgiving a personal crisis of sorts came roaring in, and I entered into a very dark time that took me to my knees, calling out to Spirit for groundedness and help.

These moments are always so profound, even in the midst of excruciating heart and soul pain.  We get to make a choice: will we stay in the darkness, or allow for the darkness to inform us and bring us to the light?  There were moments when I had no clarity as to which way I would go. In fact I felt extremely lost, despairing, inadequate and alone.

As I flopped around in the darkness I was able to listen to a small, little voice, way back there in my mind, that continuously gave me permission to just be. To not stress about the future and what I will do. To allow myself the grief, the fear, the despair, all of it. To feel it. To be it. To swim in the dark corners of my soul and discover what needs to come to the light.

No coincidence that the Winter Solstice occurred during this weird, wild and somehow wonderful time. I attended a small and intimate Solstice gathering called "Dancing Into Our Darkness". This powerful ceremony allowed me to put into physical motion all that I had been feeling and grieving, and brought in a whole new level of understanding for myself. The heaviness began to lift and the light truly began to re-enter. I began to recognize my contribution to the crisis that had come into my life, and found a new level of commitment towards healing and recovery. For myself, my relationships, and my work. I am looking forward to the promise of the New Year and realize that this painful, heart wrenching time really has been an amazing gift that will inform my journey in a positive, expansive, wider perspective, and glorious way.

A few days before Christmas I found myself asking: How would I live if I knew I only had 6 months to do so? The words fearless and boldly came right up for me. As  the New Year approached, I decided my theme for 2009 would be A Year of Bold and Fearless Living!! This is my lesson from the dark time I have just passed through, and it is the light that will guide my way in the days to come.

What will your theme for 2009 be? How will you step into that vision and make 2009 your best year yet? If you are interested, I have some personal journal questions that, through reflection and review, might help you discover the answer . Email me and I will be happy to zip them to you.

May we all have a New Year that is fulfilling, prosperous, adventurous, playful, evolutionary, revolutionary, satisfying, soul nurturing, heart opening, and healthy. And of course, may we all be bold and fearless as we go about our days, our lives, our work, our love and our relationships. Happy 2009!!!