One Of Those Days

This morning I was all ready for a great day of work, and was diligently working on a newsletter that I provide on a weekly basis for my coaching clients. Somewhere along the line I managed to leave the page I was on, and when I returned, all my hard work was gone.

Ya know the straw that broke the camels back?? This was one of those moments. I lost all my work, and then...., I lost it. I kicked and screamed and let the fury of the moment course through my body. Good thing a neighbor was running a very loud weed-wacker, otherwise neighbors would have been very worried about what was going inside my house!

Somehow, this little techno snafu sent me into emotional oblivion. Were my stars not lined up correctly, or is Mar's in retrograde? Maybe menopausal hormones are to blame. Whatever the case, it was quite a visit to the emotional realms of a day gone seriously wrong.

Later in the day, after tears that wouldn't stop and a heart that couldn't be soothed, I had to pull it together for a client's visit. I took a few moments to clear away the negative, heavy energy that swirled around me, knowing that no matter what was going on for me, it was important to be totally present for my client. Luckily, it was a client I love working with-a young womyn who is strongly stepping into her power. Her journey is a gift to witness. During the session we laughed a lot as she excitedly shared with me all of the past weeks wins.

Sometimes life is like that. We get the juice we need to carry on in the most unexpected places. Celebrating her wins helped me to reconnect to the joy of life and realize that things could be a lot worse than losing a bunch of words. Maybe they weren't the right words that my clients needed to receive. Maybe whatever does come out next will be the real healing balm, or point of inspiration, that they really do need. I don't know. I just know that somehow I was beginning to feel better.

In the midst of her session a huge thunderstorm came roaring through, bringing torrents of rain, loud thunder and cracks of lightening. Talk about shifting and cleansing the energy !! The funny thing? I was writing about the healing virtues of nature when I initially "lost" it all earlier in the day!! Just goes to show you that even coaches are human and sometimes reach the end of their ropes. I'm grateful that I am able to experience my feelings, feel them and eventually release them. What a journey it is, eh?

It's raining again and somehow I am ready to re-tackle that project that sent me over the edge this morning. I think I will go stand in the rain first and let it completely wash away all my sorrows of this day just to make sure!!